All over Facebook land for the past two weeks, my fellow mom friends and I have been doing a group countdown to Back to School.
Now two days into it and it's a list of moms saying how much they miss them.
I,however, am not. Therefore I am evil and I must be destroyed.
Or I could just be an "autism mom" finally recharging her batteries.
I'm suppose to feel horrible here that I don't miss him right? Maybe I should feel horrible about not feeling horrible? Nope, don't feel that either.
He is my only child so he is my only experience I can draw from. It just seems mothering him is ten times harder than the average kid. The yelling, the crying, the hissy fits etc... And that's just from me.
Right now I got a dog at my feet sleeping so soundly he's snoring and I actually can write out a shopping list from beginning to end without being stopped 14 times to go look for a toy he's obsessing on. So go on other moms. You can go miss my kid for me. I've earned this.
I did the happy dance in the school hallway on the first day (while the teachers laughed), it was an awesome feeling :) Today I met with 4 of my autism mom friends for a leasurely lunch and they were raving about your blog, so of course,I had to check it out. By the way, french fries are my 8 year old son's FAVORITE food in the world!!!
ReplyDeleteA long lunch where you didn't have to take someone to the bathroom or cut their food up only to have them play with it and eat yours? Heaven!!! I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thank you. :-) tell your pals I said next time invite me too. :-)
DeleteI love your honesty!! Its Sams mom from Sams Voice on FB. I have 5 boys in school. I miss them but dont. LOL I dont miss them though moments like today when I went shopping at Target alone, or food shopping alone, or being able to run into Dunkin Donuts and not have to drag all my kids and a dog just so I can get coffee and then feel guilty and wind up spending $30 getting them all snacks. I do miss the little hugs and kisses and fun times we had in the summer from Sam - but hey I can get that all after 3:30 :-)
ReplyDeleteExactly! It's not like they went to boarding school. They do come home. :-) I got a bagel today and almost grabbed a chocolate milk out of habit forgetting he wasn't with me. LOL
DeleteGiggle. Sounds Ike our trips. Chocolate milk and French fries and all is well with the world.
DeleteI have to agree with you! A friend of mine's youngest went off to school this year and she was heartbroken because he didn't look back. I poked fun at her :)~ all good fun though. I don't know, maybe it's different being an autism mom. Maybe it's because I relish those free six hours and that somehow makes me feel guilty, like, maybe I don't love my kid as much as these other people do. Maybe it's because I'm a stay at home mom who crafts to pull in extra income because I'm a stay at home mom and we need it and it's way hard to accomplish anything like that with my girl running around :) Who knows? But one thing I can say? I love my little girl more than my quiet time will ever mean to me. And when she is home, it's all about her. So, yeah, some days I feel guilty. But others? I praise God for my au-some little lady! Thank you for expressing what I feel so well! :)
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ReplyDeleteI don't care if it makes others think I'm a bad mom. I need a damn break from these kids. I refuse to feel guilty or apologize for being human. You know what they need a break from me too. Win win. I might be able to have a full conversation and they get to be with other kids and find out how part of the real world works and how to navigate it without me. Sure I'll help them out but they also need to learn how to stand on their own two feet.
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