We just wrapped up the Kiddo's IEP and the OT couldn't make the meeting. I asked for her to call and she did the very next day. I'm pretty sure by the end of the conversation she had wished she wasn't so prompt with getting back to me.
The Kiddo's constant need to be in motion and scripting has leveled up. Big time. I needed some ideas. Ones I haven't tried before that might help with his sensory needs. My bag of tricks was turned inside out. I needed to bring in the big guns with her all her fancy learning and degrees. I sat back and waited to be startled by her insight and suggestions.
Except I wasn't.
She started to rattle off her brand spanking new ideas and I had autism deja vu. It was pretty much like listening to Don Pardo announce "The following is an encore presentation of your ASD child's therapy treatment plan." The greatest hits of what we have done already with him and I just sighed. Loudly. (I"m Irish. We could medal in that category.)
I can tell she's getting flustered that I am not responding with more enthusiasm. It's hard though to be enthusiastic when you have been there. Done that. Sent the freaking postcard and bought the sensory friendly no seams t-shirt.
I'm not a know it all. Far from it. That's why I'm asking for help. I'm also not going to lie and pretend we haven't done something and the results were basically "Pfffffft!' I was kind of hoping her bag of tricks would be a bit deeper. Maybe have some secret compartments that mine did not.
I'm not saying that I wouldn't be willing to try some of these again. Heck, the first time we did feeding therapy the results fell flat. Now the Kiddo is really rocking it. It's entirely possible that with some maturity and time, one of these might be awesome.
I just wish she would of been honest and be like "Dude, I got nothing else." I could respect that. I also respect that she's trying to come across as together and hopeful. But I almost want her to be like "Damn girl. This is it." Just acknowledge that this is where we are stuck.
I'm just starting to feel like my life with this autism stuff is one giant rerun and I'd really like some new episodes. I can't change the channel. I can't find the remote. I want to hit "next episode" but autism isn't Netflix.
So now we get to pick one that we want to try again. Here goes nothing. Stay tuned for director's commentary. I'm going to have loads to share.